Supply issues

Howdy, friends.

After all my “Yay, breastfeeding!” posts, I am struggling again. Genevieve is almost 8 months old — big girl! — and my supply is dipping. This happened with Jack, too, around this time. I thought with him it was because I was running so much. I’m not as much right now (about 35 miles a week), so I didn’t think that would contribute.

I don’t know. It’s frustrating. The other day she drank 17 ounces at daycare. That’s a lot! I only pumped about 8 that day. I usually get around 12 or so, maybe 15, in 3 pumps. But lately, I’m getting nothing at my middle pump, and only 1-2 ounces at my third pump. The freezer stash is really dwindling.

I guess I could add another pumping session, but my god, I already spend an hour of every day making sweet love to my Medela. I just can’t do it any more than that. Then I think, nice, my laziness is going to mean I have to start using formula. I’m not opposed to it, but we really can’t afford it. Plus, you know how it goes — supply and demand.

Next week, I am scheduled to have a 3D bone scan, and a dye injection, to check about the pubic ramus issues I’ve had. That means 48 hours of pump-and-dump, which I’m sure will hurt supply even more. I might hold off on that appointment, though it would be good to know why I still have some pain.

We recently went out of town, and I thought four straight days with the baby would boost supply, but it didn’t seem to matter. I was even grateful for her two recent ear infections, since it meant frequent middle-of-the-night nursing sessions. “Yeah, make more milk,” I thought, bleary eyed at 3 a.m.

But no.

I probably shouldn’t panic quite yet. I still have about 100 frozen ounces. She’s eating solid foods, so I could give her more of that at daycare, so she isn’t guzzling 20 ounces of milk there.

And I have a friend with a huge freezer stash she isn’t using, who offered it. What do you think? I would use it. I need to ask my husband, though. He might think it’s odd. I don’t. I would nurse someone else’s baby, you know? Maybe I’m just a hippie at heart. Or cheap.

So, that’s where I am on that. I did have to supplement with some formula for Jack when he was about 11 months old. I really beat myself up about it. I told myself I wouldn’t be so negative if it happened again, but I am feeling like a failure, anyway. And, to be honest, annoyed because I love how I can eat like a pig while breastfeeding and not gain weight. I’m not looking forward to eating reasonable portions again! Maybe I”ll add that fourth pump after all … .

In other news, I’m running a 5K on Saturday. I won free entry, and don’t have a babysitter. So, I will be the woman pushing the double jogger. Honestly? I’m hoping to run sub 8:00-minute miles. I think that’s a pretty reasonable goal. It’s not fast, but not slow, either. And I’ve never raced with a double jogger. On gravel. I’m kind of glad I have to have the kiddos with me — I haven’t “raced” a 5K since like 2006 (21:18), and not sure I want to. So hiding behind the jogger is a good way to … hide. I’ll follow it up with a 15-miler on Sunday.

Happy running.

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One Response to Supply issues

  1. Oh so much to say here. I’m having supply issues, too! I don’t even work and I can nurse whenever. I started having supply issues with my son somewhere between 6-9 months. He was almost 16.5lbs at his 6 month check-up, didn’t gain an ounce for 3 months, then at his year was about 19lbs. So either it was a supply issue or my son was just built that way. (He’s still very slender but was obviously a big boy at 6 months!). This time- supply issues at 4 months!

    It’s definitely a supply/demand thing. You know? I mean, I should just nurse her more, right? Well she gets so upset and screams. So I caved, gave her a bottle. But…then that doesn’t help my supply. I feel like a failure, too. I would/have never judged a woman for formula feeding. I actually went to a store far away so I wouldn’t run into anyone I know to buy formula. I’ve never bought it. It was hard. I cried and told her I still loved her. Pathetic, right?! But here is the good news. My horrible bone pain is feeling so much better since doing half breastfeeding/half nursing. I seriously feel like a new person. But a failure as a mother. I also noticed she started sleeping better at night. (Formula feeding moms told me it’s the same as breastfeeding- but she is sleeping better. Maybe it’s just coincidence). I can’t decide what to do. I’m not completely quitting. I want to keep nursing so I can change my mind and up my supply (is that possible?). Anyways, all that to say…don’t be too hard on yourself. You are a great mom!

    You’ll have to let me know about the bone scan. We’ve discussed this as a possibility for me. Not sure yet I want to do it….ugh. Such a hard decision. I understand why you are- you are going on almost 2 years of pain. I did find out I have lone bone mass so we are looking into nutritional/hormonal causes of that.

    Good luck on the 5k. Racing a 5k with a double jogger sub 8 min miles is impressive. I really suck at 5ks, so try to avoid them! 🙂

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